Hates a strong word lovely anon .
Sometimes , I just feel the need to type..and type and type and type. Of course this is all just feelings and straight from my head no filters. So if you actually read this whole thing. Thumbs up to you .
I kind of feel like i’m swimming lately, through a puddle of sludge and it’s beginning to eat me alive. I feel like i’m losing touch with who i am and what i know to be true or false. You could tell me the sky was green and i’d sit here and cry because i can’t figure out if i’m crazy or your lying.
I cry alot, Much more than i should, and it always seems to come at night, and i lay here and cry and cry until i fall asleep and repeat it all the next night.
I feel like i’m lost. No better way to describe it just lost. I can’t for the life of me figure out what it is that i need to stitch myself back together i just know that i’m hurting somewhere deep within.
Every time i sit here and cry i feel like i’m choking my will to trudge through all the darkness. SO i just sleep and i don’t ever even sleep good. I have nightmares that would make so many people piss their pants.
I find myself holing out away from humans as much as possible which isn’t fair to my state of mind either, Maybe i just need a good long talk, or a mental home. I’m not sure.
I just want to know what’s wrong with me.
And some sleep, definitely some sleep.